Do you ever need balance?
Boy I sure do. These days my life is wrapped around mothering, working, cleaning, cooking, and lets not leave out being a wife, a writer, a lover, a mother (oh wait, I already mentioned that one) and of course blogging. (Which I suppose goes along with writing) I'm sure most of you would agree that while you wouldn't change the titles you were given, it can often feel overwhelming. I relate to it best like a spider web. Ever notice when those sticky little boogers touch the slightest bit of your hand, and you go to grab the fine thread only to have it stick to the other finger. It's very annoying.
So I find in my own web of life (and were not talking about Internet) that it's nearly impossible to have every thing running solo. You can't just walk away with the expectation that this thing, whatever it is, will keep itself up. And if you do walk away, somehow those wants or needs aren't far from your mind. They seem to tag along wherever you go, leaving this heaviness hanging over you until the time you do have finds it's way back in your schedule.
Take cleaning for instance. Can someone please invent a magic wand? It never ends! I vow every time after cleaning that I will keep it up and never let it get that bad again. Only the next day it's that bad again. And it's not something you can just block out of your mind. I take high pride in how clean my home is, and it still isn't clean. When people come over, do they really look at my husband if the toilet is dirty? Are they giving him the stink eye if the sink is full of dishes? Most likely not. And just for the record, for those of you who have had the pleasure/or not of my company in your home, I don't judge. Or care for that matter. You are my friends and I love you.
With all that said, I'm struggling to find this "balance thing" and still feel good about it. I love all my roles and while my faith and family are clearly number-one, I still battle with that perfect proportion of needs and wants.
So while blogging and writing are so important to me and I love every second of it, I need to steady this area, along with other things.
I've decided to step down just a little and focus on some other much needed areas in my life. Particularly my faith. I need to focus on my heart and keep it as fresh and active as much as God's willing to allow. For myself, I'm nothing without the assurance that my spiritual life stays progressive and functioning at a level in which I'm growing and purposeful.
I'm confidant as I'm determined, I will experience true fulfillment, true balance and real contentment that only lasts when it's given from the right source.
I hope you all are able to find the right balance in your lives and keep what's most important close to your hearts.
I know I will.
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